.:My first online diary of symbolisms, anachronisms and digitized memories:. .:Mi primer diario en internet lleno de simbolismos y memorias digitalizadas:.

3/25/2003

ok

I don't even know what day it is... so this is going to be all mixed up. Some of these accounts may have happened yesterday or may have happened two days ago for all I know... Well something I do know, I went to the movies tonight and watched this Gwynneth Paltrow flick about her being a stewardess and the "love interest" looked so much like Vincent D'onofrio (spelling?) that I wasn't even funny... Why did I go see that particular film? Well to tell the truth, I didn't want to think too much I wanted to escape from my reality a bit (and to not fall asleep was also a good point) Not that my life is "fucked up" right now, even though it's not a bowl of cherries either but it's not bad and I can't complain. That's the bottom line... So yesterday (I think...) We had a barbq here for my friend mimi.. a sort of bon vogage cuz she was gonna go back to new york city to finish school for the year. It was fun, I'm glad everyone helped so much, especially Carlos (gracias mano!) And Jose and Angelito helped me with my new patio furniture so everything was set. We had a blast I was a bit tired though and when almost everyone had left my friend jose ramón calls me and tells me theyr'e near so I'm like ok come on. He gets here with this friend of his and they're a bit tipsy and the other guy is high and absolutely gone... Sayin some weird shit, but he was ok. I just went with the flow. After they left we went to sleep even with a big ass pain in my legs I got some shut eye...

Anyway, to be continued... (as always) :)

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3/24/2003

OK al grano... estoy encojona con esto de la guerra... Acabo de ver los Oscares y el speech de Michael Moore le quedo cab®on.. He aqui un pedazo del mismo (el pedazo que habla de bush y la guerra...)

"We live in the time where we have fictitious election results that elects a fictitious president. We live in a time where we have a man sending us to war for fictitious reasons. Whether it's the fictition of duct tape or fictition of orange alerts we are against this war, Mr. Bush. Shame on you, Mr. Bush, shame on you. And any time you got the Pope and the Dixie Chicks against you, your time is up. Thank you very much."

-Mike Moore

Buen speech Mike. :)

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3/21/2003

The Drug File... (in spanish! yay)

Date: January 15, 2003

El doctor me receto el anti-depresivo Zoloft y una anfetamina llamada Adderall que ayuda para el ADDH. A ver que tal… maniana empiezo con el Zoloft y por lo que dice, el Zoloft aniade niveles de cerotonin al cerebro, un efecto parecido al de la droga Extasis. (asi creo anyway) Ojala que si me ayuden, confío mucho en mi psiquiatra ya que el me ha ayudado como ningun otro psiquiatra lo había logrado hasta ahora… Bueno aqui van las informaciones de las medicinas que me fueron recetadas:


BRAND NAME:
Zoloft
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PRONOUNCED: ZOE-loft
GENERIC NAME: Sertraline

Why is this drug prescribed?
Zoloft is prescribed for major depressive disorder--a persistently low mood that interferes with everyday living. Symptoms may include loss of interest in your usual activities, disturbed sleep, change in appetite, constant fidgeting or lethargic movement, fatigue, feelings of worthlessness or guilt, difficulty thinking or concentrating, and recurrent thoughts of suicide. Zoloft is also used in the treatment of obsessive-compulsive disorder--symptoms of which include unwanted thoughts that won't go away and an irresistible urge to keep repeating certain actions, such as hand-washing or counting. It is also prescribed for the treatment of panic disorder (unexpected attacks of overwhelming anxiety, accompanied by fear of their return), and for posttraumatic stress disorder (re-experiencing a dangerous or life-threatening event through intrusive thoughts, flashbacks, and intense psychological distress). Zoloft is a member of the family of drugs called "selective serotonin re-uptake inhibitors." Serotonin is one of the chemical messengers believed to govern moods. Ordinarily, it is quickly reabsorbed after its release at the junctures between nerves. Re-uptake inhibitors such as Zoloft slow this process, thereby boosting the levels of serotonin available in the brain.

Most important fact about this drug
Do not take Zoloft within 2 weeks of taking any drug classified as an MAO inhibitor. Drugs in this category include the antidepressants Marplan, Nardil, and Parnate. When serotonin boosters such as Zoloft are combined with MAO inhibitors, serious and sometimes fatal reactions can occur.

How should you take this medication?
Take Zoloft exactly as prescribed: once a day, in either the morning or the evening. Zoloft is available in capsule and oral concentrate forms. To prepare Zoloft oral concentrate, use the dropper provided. Measure out the amount of concentrate prescribed by your doctor and mix it with 4 ounces of water, ginger ale, lemon/lime soda, lemonade, or orange juice. (Do not mix the concentrate with any other type of beverage.) Drink the mixture immediately; do not prepare it in advance for later use. At times, a slight haze may appear after mixing, but this is normal. Improvement with Zoloft may not be seen for several days to a few weeks. You should expect to keep taking it for at least several months. Zoloft may make your mouth dry. For temporary relief suck a hard candy, chew gum, or melt bits of ice in your mouth. --If you miss a dose...Take the forgotten dose as soon as you remember. If several hours have passed, skip the dose. Never try to "catch up" by doubling the dose. --Storage instructions... Store at room temperature.

Recommended dosage
ADULTS Depressive or Obsessive Compulsive DisorderThe usual starting dose is 50 milligrams once a day, taken either in the morning or in the evening. Your doctor may increase your dose depending upon your response. The maximum dose is 200 milligrams in a day. Panic Disorder and Posttraumatic Stress DisorderDuring the first week, the usual dose is 25 milligrams once a day. After that, the dose increases to 50 milligrams once a day. Depending on your response, your doctor may continue to increase your dose up to a maximum of 200 milligrams a day. CHILDREN Obsessive-Compulsive DisorderThe starting dose for children aged 6 to 12 is 25 milligrams and for adolescents aged 13 to 17, 50 milligrams. Your doctor will adjust the dose as necessary. Safety and effectiveness have not been established for children under 6.



BRAND NAME:
Adderall
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PRONOUNCED: ADD-ur-all
GENERIC INGREDIENTS: Amphetamines

Why is this drug prescribed?
Adderall is prescribed in the treatment of attention-deficit disorder with hyperactivity, the condition in which a child exhibits a short attention span and becomes easily distracted, overly emotional, excessively active, and highly impulsive. It should be used as part of a broader treatment plan that includes psychological, educational, and social measures. Adderall is also prescribed for narcolepsy (uncontrollable attacks of sleep).

Most important fact about this drug
Adderall, like all amphetamines, has a high potential for abuse. If used in large doses over long periods of time, it can cause dependence and addiction. Be careful to take Adderall only as prescribed.

How should you take this medication?
Never take more Adderall than your doctor has prescribed. Do not take it for a longer time or for any other purpose than prescribed. Take the first dose upon awakening. If additional doses are prescribed, take them at intervals of 4 to 6 hours. Avoid late evening doses, which can interfere with sleep. --If you miss a dose...If you are taking 1 dose a day, and at least 6 hours remain before bedtime, take the dose as soon as you remember. If you don't remember until the next day, skip the dose and go back to your regular schedule. Do not take a double dose. If you are taking more than 1 dose a day, and you remember within an hour or so of the scheduled time, take the missed dose immediately. Otherwise, skip the dose and go back to your regular schedule. Never take 2 doses at once. --Storage instructions...Store at room temperature in a tight, light-resistant container.

Recommended dosage
Whether the problem is attention-deficit disorder or narcolepsy, the doctor will keep the dosage as low as possible. ATTENTION-DEFICIT DISORDER WITH HYPERACTIVITYChildren 3 to 5 years of age The usual starting dose is 2.5 milligrams daily. Each week, the doctor will raise the daily dosage by 2.5 milligrams until the condition is under control. Children 6 years of age and older The usual starting dose is 5 milligrams once or twice a day. Each week, the daily dosage may be increased by 5 milligrams. Only in rare cases will a child need more than 40 milligrams per day. The doctor may interrupt therapy occasionally to see if the drug is still needed. NARCOLEPSYAdults The usual total daily dose ranges from 5 to 60 milligrams, taken as 2 or more smaller doses. Children under 12 years of age The usual starting dose is 5 milligrams daily. Each week, the doctor will raise the daily dose by 5 milligrams until the condition is under control. Children 12 years of age and older The usual starting dose is 10 milligram s daily, with weekly increases of 10 milligrams daily until the drug takes effect.





Narcolepsy? Wow, eso si me impresionó. J




Semana 1 con la Zoloft:

Dosis: 10 miligramos (media pastilla)

El primer dia me senti bien rara, como que tenia una presencia en mi sangre. Senti suenio y no podia parar de bostezar. Se supone que no pudiera dormir pero dormi esa noche aunque me costo un poco de trabajo. Al otro día senti un dolor de cabeza, no muy fuerte pero definitivamente dolor. Día 3… Me dolio la cabeza especialmente en el ojo. El ojo izquierdo no lo podia ni abrir. Sentía que me estaban enterrando un objeto bien agudo. Fue horrible…
Ese dia no fui a trabajar. Despues de esos incidentes, no ha pasado mas nada.
Lo unico es que he llorado par de veces, pero no como antes que lloraba todas las noches. Extranio a mami, y no creo que ningun anti-depresivo me pueda quitar ese vacio y dolor que siento en su ausencia.


Semana 2 Zoloft:
Dosis: 20 miligramos (pastilla completa)

Me he sentido bastante bien considerando que he estado también hecha una bola de nervios que no puede dormir. Igual y todavía no he recibido el efecto completo de la pastilla. Ya veré con el tiempo... Seguimos Informando.


Semana 3: Zoloft y Aderall (20 y 30 mg respectivamente)

El doc pensó que el Aderall esta ayudando mucho así que me subió la dosis a 30mg... Hoy la tomé y me sentí bien rara... A ver si me ayuda a rebajar porque aunque me da hambre, no estoy comiendo tanto... wooo! Que viva Aderall y la madre que lo parió! =)

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3/18/2003

Sunday...

I want to set up my office so I ask him to go with me to office max, not before stopping by Border's to see if the new Placebo album was on sale yet.. He found out it comes out April 1st... April Fool's day lol... (coincidence? perhaps) We do some power shopping at Office Max cause it's about to close and then we agree to ask a friend of his and now of mine also to go out to lunch/dinner/just food for fawk's sake (I hand't eaten a thing) and he agreed so we went to pick him up... After din din... we went to rent movies and then came home and they helped me set up the office and then we watched White Orleander and then Igby goes down. Both movies were good but my favorite was without a doubt White Orleander. (To be Continued being as I'm so tired and I have to sleep.)

10-4

Back again with more labia...


OK where was I? After we dropped his friend off he asked me if I'd like for him to stay.."Ah why not?" I thought. So he stayed...
We talked a lot and I tried to sleep but I coudn't so I woke up at 6:30 and decided to make breakfast... he had to go so he left and I had my breakfast and slept allll fucking day... wow I hadn't done that in so long. I woke up angry cuz I hate losing the day... But anyway I was zombie and came home and decided to just watch a movie and then to sleep early... as early as I could anyway...

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3/14/2003

I'm watching Pumpkin right now, with Christina Ricci, if you haven't seen it rent it or buy it... It's worth it. For more info, visit www.imdb.com.
I'm goin to bed...


By the way this is my first post, and this is pretty cool even though I can't really see the finished product... or something. ;)

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